There are two different ways you can fall in love with other person—one you fall in love at first sight and in a second situation, you fall in love with him/her gradually as you start knowing each other. I am having that second kind of love affair with yoga. Falling in love helps you developing a unique understanding of other person and sharing one of its kind proximity with that person. So my bond with yoga is as exclusive and intimate as falling in love.
The purpose of taking up yoga, like many of you, was to manage my stress and at the same time take care of physical fitness. When I began my yogasana practice, I had no idea that my acquaintance with yoga will turn into a long lasting affair. I never thought, not even in my dreams that I will teach yoga. During childhood, thanks to 90’s televisions serials, I always perceived me as the dashing and dynamic investigative journalist, who would pen real stories of poor virtuous people who can’t’ stand for themselves. I literally believed that pen is mightier than sword.
Post journalism studies, I tried to convey this fire of journalism inside me during my job interviews as the fresher, but I guess hardly anyone seemed impressed. For them, I was one more immature young girl, who will understand with the passing time that she cannot change the world. They were right. Actually you cannot change the world, you should become the change. I knew this theoretically but I could grasp its real meaning during yoga studies. The sad and hilarious part is that no one offered me assignment where I will push my limits as the journalist. I was surprised that how could movie/TV serial characters land up their dream assignments finally! It was my first stint with reality; films may mirror of our lives but life is not that filmy.
Later I had the opportunity to write business stories of precious metals and stones like silver, gold, platinum, diamonds, colored gemstones and masterpieces. But shine of gold and glitter of diamonds couldn’t add any special allure to my inner personality. But I can’t deny the fact that it offered me opportunity to roam across jewellery hubs of India and also confidence of having conversations with anybody—from a salesman to CEO of giant organization. But the mind always had irksome question that how long I would continue my association with slower growth (not at par with expectations) and lesser contentment.
Problems (including feeling of boredom) can be attributed to evolution of human beings. Every invention whether fire; telephone or social digital networks are born out of stumbling blocks which human race faced from time to time. Longing for physical fitness and stress free life motivated me to take up yoga. Being a yoga student during teachers training course was an ultimate experience. The course changed me inside out. The immediate effect was highly positive and constructive, and it was visible in my personality. My enthusiasm to teach yoga was over pouring. But being a teacher has its own benefits and disadvantages too that I realized later. I considered my teacher training certificate the biggest milestone of my life. I believed that I will lead a very peaceful, happy and wonderful life thereafter.
This over-confidence was the outcome of my wholesome training in yoga. I was surrounded by madly in love with yoga people at the institute. So I naturally assumed that people in outside world (beyond institute) are dying to learn yoga. People will just flock to my yoga class as I communicate with them my knowledge and understanding of yoga. But it turned out self-acclaimed illusion. I realized that people have information on yoga but they are lacking profound understanding of yoga. So convincing individuals to practice yoga at affordable rates by promising weight loss (90% people choose yoga only for this reason) was a mammoth task. Nowadays I also take the promise from a new yogi that no matter what, he/she will continue practicing yoga.
My yoga teaching experience can be compared with butterfly’s journey of metamorphosis. One fine day, the caterpillar stops eating, spins itself a silky cocoon by hanging upside down to a leaf or the branch. After few days, the caterpillar emerges as butterfly. To transform itself, the caterpillar goes through a struggle and hard work. But as soon as it becomes a butterfly, it is free to soar effortlessly whichever direction it wants. Though yoga is passion itself for many yoga followers like me, but it is much more than that--it actually offers freedom to yogi which directs him/her to soul’s purpose.
A profession of yoga teacher invites several experiences of various natures-- good, bad, worst and best. It has given me a chance to apply the philosophy to life and form my own life philosophy too. I am sharing here some fables/lessons/experiences of my yoga story with you. They are not purely yogic experiences but amalgamation of my life experiences infused with yoga. You will definitely find some connection with few of them as the student of yoga or a yoga teacher.
• Awareness, Acceptance: Yoga has made me aware of interdependence of body and mind. My mind can register even micro changes in my body. I know which part of my body starts aching when I am going through cycles of fear or anxiety. Awareness of breath helps me to track the changes in my feelings. I know how my breath reacts to fear, doubts, anxiety, joy and ecstasy. Earlier I used to get overwhelmed by identifying negative emotions inside me. It is quite easy to accept both good and bad aspects of me without any guilt.
Business: I cherished to work with an MNC and earn accolades from my seniors who will push me up on the ladder of success. Though teaching yoga cannot be considered as the pure business but understanding of sales and marketing mechanics can help the teacher to reach more people, educate them for yoga and earn respectable income.
• Self-reliance: Interacting with people with varied demographics and diverse socio-economic-cultural backgrounds helps broadening the horizons of yoga teacher as our life is enriched not only with self experiences but also by student’s life stories. In present times, the yoga teacher’s profession requires to preserve the purity of yoga and make a good living out of it at the same time, which can only be compared with walking on the tight rope. Teaching yoga has equipped me with this rare skill of self-reliance.
• Decision making: “To be or not to be” the famous phrase from William Shakespeare’s play defines the life of majority of us. Procrastination was the dominating force for quite period in my life. These days decision making is quicker and much better.
• Detachment & Empathy: Majority of the students turn to yoga on doctor’s recommendation. The stories of such yoga followers are powered by pain and miseries. So listening to their stories with empathy and detachment, is the tough art which every yoga teacher has to master. The most interesting part is that you cannot learn it; it just comes naturally to you with the time.
• Faith: Teaching yoga tests your faith in higher self. A renown spiritual guru, Sadguru says one of its talks that lots of fears which we cultivate in our brain and hearts; don’t come true actually. But you can realize and believe it only when you actually face your fears with faith. I was in doubt initially of my teaching skills and yogic knowledge but fears started flying away as I continued teaching even when I was in doubt. Faith helped me standing firmly even in my personal breakdowns.
• Love: You cannot love someone completely without getting detached. Detachment doesn’t mean that you have to break all ties with your loved ones but it asks you to offer them freedom to do what they love. Paulo Coelho aptly describes the true love impact in his world famous book The Alchemist, “When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are; everything around us becomes better too.”
• Not taking everything personally: If someone used to stop coming to my class, I used to ponder over the bad thought that I may be not a good teacher and that’s why she/he has discontinued—overlooking multiple other factors like their convenience, preferences and priorities. Nowadays I don’t take everything that personally.
• Spirituality: Yoga worked as the medium to experiencing true spirituality—means one's connection to higher self.
• Being in the Present Moment: Outcome of my actions has always been different than I perceived of. I learned in a hard way through yoga teaching that you cannot control your unknown and uncertain future. Being in the present moment doesn't mean you stop working towards your better tomorrow. The only thing matters today is living and enjoying in the present. However, it is the most difficult understanding to apply in life but when you can; you can live a blissful life.
Please feel free to share your yoga story with us. It would be enriching exercise for all of us.